

I feel so much and that is how I have got to this place in my life." But it has also made me who I am, and sometimes at my most terrified, when I feel there is no escape from the sheer panic and dread in my heart and brain, I remind myself that I can feel. "If I was to really think about it, my anxiety has dictated quite a lot of my life and career, and I feel sad about that. "While the moments of being on stage in front of all of you have been some of the most exhilarating and calming, this year I have been struggling," she divulged. I’ve struggled daily, nightly, hourly with a kind of panic I didn’t even know existed.” I have a dog and a cat that love me, I have my friends that really love me, and I have a husband that adores and supports me every single day,” Goulding continued before revealing that “this year has also been the hardest of my life. “I became a mother, the greatest joy I’ve known. I have released my first book, performed to the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge, the President and Joni Mitchell (and I can’t explain how grateful I am for that privilege),” she wrote.

“I’ve had time to sit down with great musicians and writers and made exciting new music that I hope will give people who hear it the same euphoric escape that I experienced when writing it. In a lengthy Instagram post, the singer called 2021 “the very best (year) of my life.”

Ellie Goulding opened up about her mental health on New Year's Eve.
